Hi and welcome to my blog. My name is Kari and I’m a small town girl from Wisconsin.
My journey with self-love, body positivity and confidence has been an interesting one thus far. I was diagnosed with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) when I was little, and it had less of an impact and effect on my life then, as I didn’t really understand it.
Back in 2006, I battled with a lot of demons. Ones that kept telling my life was not worth living and my voice was insignificant. I didn’t love myself. I didn’t even like myself. In fact, I hated myself and didn’t want to keep carrying on. In the eyes of others, I was pretty, I was successful, I had friends. But my brain just wouldn’t allow me to be happy. So, I stayed tormented.
I struggled with eating, lived in size zero jeans, ate a Slim Jim and a bag of Ritz cheese crackers for lunch every day. My body lacked sufficient nutrients, and the anxiety I felt about the world around me grew. When I graduated high school and went to college, the stress of it all caused a lot of weight gain. I was putting my body through the ringer.
I remember walking through the grocery store one day and doubling over in pain. I thought maybe my appendix has burst. I was rushed to the hospital and they found nothing. This started a long process of trying to figure out a diagnosis for this pain of what I now know to be from my IBS. Doctors told me everything under the sun, from having holes in my spine to spots in my lung, to anxiety disorder, and more.
None of their diagnosis was correct. What I didn’t connect or know was that what I was eating was wreaking havoc on my body. The diagnosis I received when I was born, or shortly thereafter, had been causing these problems all along. The food I was ingesting was creating huge gas pockets in my intestines, expanding my gut to make me look like I was nine months pregnant, and causing a lot of pain.
After 29 years, I finally got confirmation of my diagnosis and sent an actual program to help. Why did it take this long? I surely cannot be the only one in the world suffering from this condition. In fact, 10-15% of the population has this, and most of them are suffering and questioning like me. I’m writing this blog to raise awareness of this issue, and to help those who are going through it and don’t know where to turn.
I believe that self-care is super important, and a struggle with body positivity is a massive hurdle we have to overcome. It’s hard when your body composition completely changes just from eating an apple. I’m learning how to love myself despite my condition and how to give myself grace and forgiveness when I make a poor decision involving food.
Why does all this matter? Because there are people like me who want to eat the cake, not just look at it.
Please, explore my blog and start a conversation with me in the comments. I’d love to hear from you and learn about your struggles and victories.
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